effing ridiculous!

Apparently I make people feel like:

-I'm better than them
-They're idiots
-I'm a control freak

When someone tells me that they're sick or something is wrong with their life, I automatically go into problem solving mode. It's not for ANY of the above reasons. I've never thought anyone was stupid or that I was better than them. I give advice when you tell me your problems because I want to help and make you feel better or help out what's going on with your situation. It's this whole "Momma bear" type of thing that's in me. I don't mean to make anyone feel like this whenever I give out advice. Here's the thing... if you don't want my advice, then don't tell me about your problems! Simple as that! Or say... "I know you want to help with things Allison, but please do not give me your advice unless I ask for it". What am I supposed to do? You tell me your problems about something and I'm supposed to just sit there and say "oh that sucks for you"?!?! Seriously?!

I will no longer voice my opinion to those who have said that I'm a control freak or that I lecture too often. So, so, SO sorry that I gave a crap and wanted to help out my friends! I'm sick of this b.s. I'm not a bad person. All I want is for my friends to be happy. Ugh!

6 Month Anniversary

It was amazing!

We made pancakes in the morning. I burned the first two sadly but Alex took over from there. He made them just right. We slathered them with butter and syrup while watching t.v.

He took me ice skating! I wish we would've had a camera with us! It was SO cute watching him skate! He's not exactly the best skater, but he tried and it was really sweet of him to take me there.

We went home, got showered and dressed up. He took me to Bistro Byronz for dinner. It's a really cute/intimate restaurant with really yummy food! When we clinked our wine glasses in cheers to the occasion, he said "here's to another six months!" :-) I could've just swoon right there when he said that.

Then he took me to Marble Slab Creamery for some delicious ice cream! We went home to watch episodes of Felicity and eat our ice cream.

It was a PERFECT evening!

He gave me a really pretty necklace and flowers. I gave him a card, a cute little elephant statue (special meaning between us for that one), and I cross stitched the word love with hearts in a little picture frame.

I love Alex so much! He makes me so happy! Things are pretty serious between us and I love it! I could definitely see myself marrying him. :::knocks on wood:::

hearts

Extra long weekend with the boyfriend. I already miss him. Can't wait until this weekend! It's our 6 month anniversary! I told him that I have a really cute dress to wear. He said that I should wear long pants that I don't mind getting dirty for the first part of the date and that I can wear my dress for the second part of the date. Hmmm... wonder what he's got up his sleeve?

BP

This situation has been out of control but I think the government is trying their best to control it. It's only in hindsight that you can sit there judging and saying "Oh well they should've done c and d"... but you've got to try a and b first before you can move on to the next plans.

Is this normal?

I love him. I like hanging out with him. There are more times than I care to admit that I feel like he could care less whether we're together or not. I know he loves me. He says he loves me. I feel the passion when we kiss or make love but other than that, there's not much there. I feel like I'm a nuisance and I just get in the way of his daily routine. I cook, clean, look pretty, am extremely conversational with his friends and family... I feel like I give and give and give but there isn't much in return. He constantly doubts our relationship and tells me about it often. He assures me that he wants to be with me but he has his doubts. Am I wasting my time? He's sweet, treats me right but I feel like I'm the only one trying in this relationship sometimes. Are relationships supposed to make you think/question them so often? I thought this was supposed to be easy and feel so natural. Sometimes it does... but lately it just doesn't. Maybe I should give it some more time? Maybe I should break up with him? Maybe we just need space from each other? Ugh! S.O.S.

Seriously?... Seriously?!

http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-503544_162-20005333-503544.html

This is so infuriating.

Accentuate the positives?

People are overly critical of anything and everything in their lives. There could be a million things going right and only one or two things going wrong. For some odd reason, we tend to focus all of our energy on those negative aspects. It seems like very few people appreciate the good things in life.

I can honestly say that I am very happy with my life. I have great sisters. I am getting my Masters degree. I have a great roommate. My boyfriend is amazing. I love my family. I've lost 20 pounds!

There aren't too many things going wrong with my life and those that aren't perfect don't get to me that much because you can't cry over spilled milk... but you can grab some paper towels to soak it up and make things better.